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What have I done.

I’ve gotten into something that I can’t simply get out if. Its difficult and energy consuming. This is something I wish I never got into in the first place.

I have no regrets, I’m just saying if I could…I would probably take it all back and live the way I did before. Genuinely happy with no boundaries or rules. My smiles would be because of myself and my true happiness would show. I wouldn’t have to have the burden of needing to share myself. I wouldn’t have to lie about my life. I wouldn’t have to lie to myself.

I wish I could just…be happy again.