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I’ve been torn apart, scarred, and emotionally hurt.

It hurts and I can’t get over it. Every time I think about those deep brown eyes, tears immediately appear and fall.

It’s not my choice, this wasn’t how I wanted it to be. I hate them so much, everything that happened, I can promise I’ll never forget.

I recently started even having dreams about the past. More like nightmares actually. Just repeats of everything that happened during childhood. Enough to make a person cringe, enough to make me regret immediately.

I need to take my mind off things, maybe I’ll find a hobby or something but I know it won’t leave me. Instead it will just hide in the back of my mind, away from the clear path of my thinking.

I’ll just think about other stuff and bury it within.